Restarting over

Found my old sketchbook and colour palette that I used when I was in secondary school.

The palette has gotten dusty now and the colours are sooo hideous hahaha I wonder how did I survive my art class with those.

I can still remember clearly when I told Abah that I wanted to try doing watercolour, he bought me the cheapest he could find in store, a 12-coloured palette worth RM2.50.

Yeah you read it right.

RM 2.50

My dad must haave loved me so much -_-

Haha

Didn't blame him tho. He used to buy me a fancy poster colour set and I didn't use them. At the end, the colour turned into solids, hard as stone. Lol.

After handing me the cheap watercolour, he sent me to drawing classes at Gelanggang Seni in KB.

"Learn the skills first. Finish your sketchbook and I'll buy the watercolour that you want," was what he said when I whined about the texture of the impossible-to-blend colours.

On another note, he did not buy me the watercolour that I want.

I mean, promise is a promise.

Now, where's my Van Gogh watercolour set? Hahaha jk.

But seriously tho, he would patiently wait for me to finish my sessions, along with other Chinese kids (I was the only Malay in the class lol).

So yeah, he did love me. 

Nevertheless, as he had been expecting, after a few classes, I was not really into drawing anymore and I quit. 

HAHAHAHA

Took me a few years and a few Youtube videos later to change my mind back.

I was seriously so bad at it years ago, my classmate even questioned me why did I took art as my extra subject. Haha. That's how bad I was.

But I learned that things take time.

Everyone has their own pace and the journey will make you appreciate your result even more.

Like just now, when I tried using my old colour again, it didn't turn out as ugly as before :) although of course, it's not as pretty as other people's drawings, I'm still proud of my little progress. 

It only means I'm moving forward, and not backward.

My first attempt at  galaxy drawing didn't really turn out as I expected it to be. I used Buncho poster colour and what's even worse, I applied solid BLACK.

Amateur mistake *facepalm*

In my defence, the dark blue was not dark enough, okay. Haha. 

After a few months avoiding galaxy themed drawing, I finally decided that it's time to try again.

I mean, come on. It can't be that hard ? Right ?

And hence, I coated a first few layers of colours, applying wet-on-on wet, at the corner of the paper only.

Was about to proceed...but the fear was still overpowering inside me, I guess.

Drew a moose instead of finishing the galaxy !

Hahahahaha

And no, that's not a falling leaf on his nose. I accidentally dropped my brush there.

Why do I always have issues with black colour ?
I love it, and it never seems to return the favour.
And people asked why I have trust issue -_-
hahaha

Study week

I loooooove looooove loooooove study week.

It's the only free time I have to rewrite and redraw my notes.

I like seeing them in colours, and hence,

I don't really mind about the troubles.

Will do it three or four times

If that's what it takes to prove my love

That Kellog's tho...

Railway Children's theatre

While I had to direct and act in our drama class, I was also assigned to act in our school play -_- as if everything is not tiring enough. 

This time, we had to work with our seniors, the second year and third year to present the Form 3 novel, Railway Children. The script and storyline were easy peasy... what's not easy was..us. It's complicated to arrange our meetings for practice as all of us aren't from the same year. In the end, we had to practice till past midnight or during the weekends. And not to mention, this semester I have 3 subjects with 100% coursework and all of them are begging for my attention :'(

Last week, after a few times practicing, it finally came to an end as we had our photo-shoot for the poster , and bammmm d-day quickly followed three days after. 

Syamim semangat and so gigih being a mermaid

okay here's a decent one just in case you need one

Penat Syamim menonggeng sini sana, last2 pakai gambar skema ni hahahahhaha

It was a private occasion attended by a few ministers and principals from schools all over Malaysia. Thank God it ended already ! phew

However ,,,, 

I just received a bad news from Syud our director, that Dr Lin wants us to perform a drama again next semester -_- 

so technically we're still on the endless journey.

luckily this team is filled with funny people

These past few days had been crazy I barely get enough sleep. Yesterday, I was sick and oh also today for the program,  I had to recite poem with the opposite character of the drama character -_-. Macam orang gila rushing tukar baju and make up.

After the program ended, my babies quickly dragged me for a short 'calm-down-woman' moment to sip a large cup of green tea. 

Haikal busy dok ber photo-shoot while I savoured my few hours break before I get back to my other assignments. 

 

80s Drama Night 'Blast from The Past'

So our drama has officially ended last night !!!! Alhamdulillah for everything . 

Even though there're some glitches here and there, I'm just glad it finally ended. At last ! 

As soon as our team bowed on the stage, I felt like the whole burden were lifted away from my shoulders ; seriously never felt as free as that.

IT IS FINALLY OVER !

Class with our dearest Dr. K posited nearly impossible goals to the extent of having to perform a musical drama from the 1980's; because acting only is apparently not challenging enough. Though obvious when the oeuvre has finally completed, such demands had actually taught us needed antidote to the term of 'capable teacher' ,,, yet the journey was not one in which I would wish to go through again. Thanks but no thanks. Kissing my goodbye to PET102. 

It was tiring because of the workload behind the scene. People kept expecting this and that and they only knew how to ask. Never sign me up to be a director. Ever again. I'm so done. 

Plus, the clerical tasks that we had to do in order to ensure the event run smoothly was the worst nightmare. Dealing with university admin is the worst nightmare. I know I've said this last semester, and I'm going to say it again, "It's. the. worst."
With little cooperation given by the administrations and some people in the office, we were like puppets; do as what they pointed us to. 

"Go here, ask for Mr. bla bla bla."

"No I'm not in charge. Try asking this bla bla bla office."

"Our department can't let you do this."

Took us months just to secure a venue! And that's just a venue. Don't get me started on other things. 

Yeah. I know it's not good for me to whine but we've been through this for 2 semesters. They're just repeating the same patterns. It is 'running here and there' all over again. But well, of course 1st semester was much worse for us, beginners. Thank God we started early.

As for my own drama team, our group failed in the first practice, was personally requested by Dr. Hardy to reconsider the play, and rewrite the plot.

Not to mention we argued about the scripts and plots, a lot.

We also had problems with the music and dancing teams, 

our main actor was VERY degil (he insisted on going to hockey practice) that he injured himself the day BEFORE the performance (he blamed my mulut masin pffft and I blamed his thickheaded act).

and many more countless issues that we encountered as a team. 

Nevertheless, team is like family. Quarrel as you may, you're still a unit. Attached to one another.
As a team, we compete together ; win or lose as a team, and rise or fall, also as a team. Indeed, we argued a lot but it was because each of us wanted Guns N' Roses  to be the best team, not because of abhorrence

and I am proud to say that 

I LOVE MY TEAM VERY MUCH, 

all thanks to the passion that had driven them to such a wonderful work. 

Guns N Roses :) Urgh those vibrant colours of 80's costumes.

Well, our drama was about a boy who wanna avenge his father's death. He planned it by inviting his rivals to an isolated island through a mysterious phone call. They ended being stuck in the island with no boats and landlines until the next few days , and had to face one after another murder. No one was to be trusted any longer. They started to suspect each other. When there's only a few of them left on the island, the crime was finally revealed. And, the last person anyone would have guessed, was the master mind. 

First scene; flashback to 15 years ago.

Last scene, where Iskandar performed a monologue of a mentally disturbed man, while being tied.

Rehearsal was waay better, I would say. Still, it was an enjoyable experience working with these people :) And, we all had fun , didn't we :) :) :)

Nana's and Allia's groups performance were funny!

p/s :  After having dinner, I went back to the room, plonked on my bed and was unconscious till this afternoon. Haha. Didn't even wipe the make up off. After months of having my life in storm, I could finally have a good rest. The sleep was good. 

Our Poem Recitation

As you may or may not know, our lecturer for Oral Class is very strict. We were warned about him since the very first semester by the seniors. 

Okay now forget about the boring mundane first sem. Now we're in second sem and here we are , dancing , singing and monkeying around in front of Subaidah pave-walk for our Wednesday class. Literall. Because those are our tasks for this sem. To perform weekly in front of the busiest restaurant in USM.

Two weeks ago, we're given a title for an individual monologue and had to perform it on the spot. God. Dr.K really knows how to test his students' limits, doesn't he ? Urghhh 

Mine was, 

"You are stucked in an abandoned nuclear plant in Chernobyl." and after 5 seconds , "Action."

-__________________________- 

mega facepalm, right there in front of Dr. K. 

I swear even the performance art students won't be able to think of a scene or script within the time given. 

It was a total disaster. I prefer not to recall it.

And then last week, his task was, 

'Perform an original poem of yours within 90 seconds. No less, no more or I will straight away give a B' 

Always play his 'B card' , guys. All the time. And yes, it worked on us, somehow. Hahaha. 

As usual, this pathetic student of his (me of course) went back to Kelantan for her weekend and only prepared the poem the night before. Thank God the timing was extraordinarily perfect although I didn't even memorize the whole thing. haha. Who cares.

Okay forget about it. 

The thing is, our class is like a BIIIIIG melting pot of drama and adventure, so a 'live' weekly drama is a must . 

The tinge of 'drama drama drama' for last week was, we had to redo the recitation. 

 Dr. K was very furious at us last week (said we didn't prepared much, take things lightly, not fitted to be English teachers and so on blablabla all those excuses) , 

and he just canceled the class. 

Pooffff. Begone.

So this week, here we are ... semangat as hell. haha

(this class has really burned my whole pocket, I tell you)

Not to mention it's only 5% of the paper's coursework. 

*muka bulan, muka bulan, muka bulan*

Mayra is begging for more mark apparently haha and I'm just giving up on this class, nothing in particular. Thanks for asking.

Muka desperate markah  

nenek kebayan 

another beggar haha

my personal favourite poem recitation !
sumpah best and creepy gila.
and i think dr liked it too. kudos syuhaida !

I am sooo done with this semester. Still, need to survive ! Lusa dah nak kena perform dramaaaaa

p/s : Thanks for singing me birthday song in front of the restaurant :') so sweet of you guys. Thanks

Update: 3 students were chosen to recite poem and represent USM in an event with the ministers and I don't know how and why but somehow, I was one of them hahahahaha.
I was already a part of the drama team with the seniors (same event) and my costume for that part was the opposite. My role for that one was to look girly. Lol. Someone needs a make up assistant that can do the job quickly.